this is the mystery of the quotient

Espana!

2009-11-07T16:31:23Z

Pretend that missing accent mark is there!

I'm going to an academic conference in Seville, and we leave today. Four days there, plenty of time to fuck around and see some awesome Spanish things. Plenty of time to make some awesomely fun bad decisions. I'm pretty stoked.

I saw TAI on Tuesday. William Beckett. Love. of. my. Life. They were so surprisingly good! I just generally expect people with high voices, esp. guys, to not be able to reproduce it live, but damn that kid has a voice. And the Butcher is seriously so much hotter in real life. Trufx.

Also, may I just say, a week away from campus looks more lovely with each passing second. I'm so ready.

hot damn let me make you my boo

2009-10-08T00:31:38Z

this week is a good week for the following reasons.

1. Finished my first ever Butcher/Sisky fic. Now somewhere to post it? I've never posted beyond panic comms. Bandlash Mania? I hear that's where all the cool kids are going.

2. COBRA MEET AND GREET PASSES WHUT. I'm excited! This is the year of FBR. 11/21, anyone going?

3. I found a TAI buddy for November. Double exited!

4. Empires is not only leaving the great state of Illinois, but they're stopping in PHILADELPHIA. Yesssss, thank you, universe. $7 Empires show = awesome.

5. Probability test wasn't so bad.

6. Supernatural. So. Good.

7. Metric! In Philly! 11/25! Totes going.

life!

2009-08-12T18:21:28Z

so life has been crazy and livejournal has just not been happening.

but. Panic! and Fall Out Boy and Blink tonight! Excitement!

Real update when I get back. :)

we must reinvent love

2009-07-07T12:36:02Z

Uh, so way to go not updating for a month. Whoops. So, life. Carries on. Gets better.

My summer fellows research is going along pretty smoothly. It's crazy that we only have three more weeks, though! Wth. Where did this time go. Things aren't going THAT smoothly. Jeez.

I'm rewatching The West Wing season 4. I love the West Wing. It is full of political goodness and Josh Lyman, and that makes everything okay. I think I'm going to like Supernatural. We're only one episode in, though. And also? Gran Torino = badass movie. Go forth and watch it.

I have...discovered my absolute adoration for Ray/Mikey...yet no one writes this, apparently? This, my friends, is a travesty. They have silent nerd love! And the hair! C'mon! Everyone wants in on this, I can tellllll. I'm writing it. Of course I am. e.e;;;

also, wtf panic at the disco. I mean, you gotta do what you gotta do, but they weren't done yet, y'know? ::grumbles:: team brencer? :(((((( but...but...but JWalk and Ryho...we need them, too. aw, fuck. this blows, kids. also also, I just JUST paid to see them in August. of course I did.

EDIT: uh. wtf, Ryan Ross? Brendon is a sweetie, though. He needs more hugs. :(

a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

2009-06-13T19:30:38Z

Emily and I are, at times, Machiavellian. And successful, too. Good night last night, besides the ever present reminder of how fucked I truly am, for the time being, anyway. Ehhh.

I'm trying so hard to accomplish something today, but I'm at this point where I really don't know what to do. I'm not actually particularly *good* at computer science, but I'm doing a summer fellows project on it? How did this happen? I mean, I enjoy it, but I don't know what to do and so can't really get anything done this weekend. Mostly because I don't understand the pieces that I'm looking at, and since I don't know how any of the parts work together, it's a little difficult to manipulate them. Eh.

I'm not depressed, really, just in this motivation-free funk overlaid with true boredom. I think that I need more friends.

Not to mention that now that bigbangs are coming out, there are all of these new fics to read. Distractions. God.

Consequently, anyone who feels like coming and visiting me, please for the love of God, do it. Please. Or I'm just going to start going home, and then Emily really will end my life.

like o, like h in your gut

2009-06-10T18:20:10Z

took the LSAT. I think I survived reasonably well, though it's so weird that it's over. The day after the LSAT was the best day I've had in a while. I left work in a good mood. Fail!bucket didn't irritate me and Katie and I didn't ignore each other. I got to deliver mail and be outside with my iPod. Learned some cool Java. Devon got me coffee. Finished my presentation for Summer Fellows early.

Everything feels a lot easier to deal with, or at least a lot easier to fake.

I find it surprisingly easy to just fake the fuck out of things right now, and I feel like maybe that should concern me, but I'm so grateful for the respite that I'm just going to let it go at present. There are lies and then there are sins of omission, and if no one is asking me about it, it's not even omission, right? Maybe? So we're talking again in some semblance of normalcy, which is good, I guess, though I'm not sure what changed because it isn't like we actually Talked about Anything of Importance so...I don't know? I mean, it's not like I feel any differently, because I don't, but at the same time, I'm not about to mope around for the rest of the summer and I definitely don't need to be putting myself out there with a sign that says, 'please stomp all over me again!'. It sucks more to not talk than it does to have to constantly redraw lines in my head, y'know? And if we're honest, I was brain ninja-ed for a while and just ignored it, so I can and will get back there. progress.

Also, almost finished with Skins series 3, and I kinda heart Effy Stonem, even though she's kind of ridiculous and not very likeable. Oh well. Cook has, in fact, grown on me. The thing that made me like him most was him giving up on Naomi, for whatever reason. He'll never be my favorite or anything, but he's tolerable. I still loathe Pandora with every fiber of my being. She's got that fucking pathetic expression on her face all the time and it drives me NUTS.

Metric on the 19th!

I'm still super excited about Panic in August. :D

is this fooling anyone else?

2009-06-08T03:47:09Z

omfg. I was totally cool with the whole LSAT thing being tomorrow until RIGHT THIS SECOND.

but it's going to be cool.

really.

oh. my. god. lol. shit.

awkward

2009-06-01T15:18:40Z

yeah, well. we all knew that was a faint hope anyway. :/

it is currently difficult for me to not pick fights just for the sake of getting to yell at each other.

I'm tired of this shit.

she said i think i'll just play dead for a while

2009-05-31T02:31:17Z

You know what I want this summer? American Gladiator. That shit was ridiculous. TITAN BIG THIGHS.

Anyway. Disney World was pretty awesome. I squeed over Prince Caspian and met the Green Power Ranger. All in all, a successful trip. It did rain, torrentially, a rather ridiculous amount, though, but that was ok because hey, Disney World. Also, I got to spend time with Mom, which I generally don't because we often have opposing schedules.

Been doing lots and lots of LSAT practice - gods, I hope it pays off. Practically all of my law school dreeeeams are pinned on this one damn number. No pressure, right? Right.

I'm simultaneously ready and not ready to go back to campus. Looking forward to getting started on summer fellows and to be back on campus, but totally not looking forward to have to deal with all of my brain ninja issues all over again. I'm hoping (hoping!) that it'll be one of those things where I'll see her and be like, oh, what the hell was that all about? It could totally happen. Le sigh.

Started my summer reading. Kushiel's Justice, Jacqueline Carey. After this series, I begin my summer of remix and replay, wherein I reread classics like LotR and Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

This is going to be an awesome summer, or else.

I'm not getting defensive!

2009-05-14T04:50:37Z

10 EMOTIONS.
1. Are you missing someone right now? Yes. Damn.
2. Are you happy? Eh. Content, would be a better word, at the moment. It was mostly a good day.
3. Are you talking to anyone right now? Amy and Ben, via aim.
4. Are you bored: Not particularly. Watching Project Runway Replacement on Bravo and running commentary with Amy.
5. Are you German: halfish?
6. Are you Irish: more scottish.
7. Are you French: nope.
8. Are you Italian: nope.
9. Are your parents still married: yes. despite what some people think, lol.
10. Do you like someone right now?: yes. and that's the problem.

10 FAVORITES.
1. Store: bookstores! teavana. that weird store with all the cool stuff in Cape May.
2. Flower: orchids. they're suck freaks.
3. Colors: blue.
4. Fav sport: fencing.
5. Mall: I prefer outdoor malls.
6. Music: right now, I'm really into los campesinos.
7. Food: I am all about shrimp and apples at the moment. and gatorade. that isn't a food, though.
9. Animal: the majestic moose!
10. State: PA? the hell.

TEN FACTS.
1. Hometown: York. What a place.
2. Hair color: Red.
3. Age: 21. I'm running out of cool birthdays!
4. Hair style: generally pony tails because I'm lazy, but I like it best when I've taken the time to tame the beast and wear it down.
5. Eye color: Blue, with some gray.
6. Closest friends: I'm not making a list. They know who they are.
7. Mood: sleepy, vaguely irritated.
8. Skin color: pasty with some freckle accents.
9. Available: Single, yes. Availability? Confused.
10. Lefty/righty: Righty.

10 THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. Have you ever been in love? Yes.
2. Do you believe in love: Yes.
3. Why did your last relationship fail: Retardation.
4. Have you ever been heartbroken: Yes. This isn't the distraction I thought it was. Treachery, internet, treachery!
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yes. It sucked.
6. Have you ever fallen for one of your best friends: Yes. Let's not talk about it.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them: Who hasn't, man?
8. Are you afraid of commitment: No. The problem.
9. Has someone ever kissed your hand: Yes. It was adorable.
10. Have you ever had a secret admirer: uh...maybe? I dunno.

10 THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or trust: One does require the other.
2. Hard liquor or beer: Hard liquor.
3. Night or day: Night. I do all my best work at night.
4. One night stands or relationships: Relationship.
5. Television or internet: TV is on the internet.
6. Pepsi or coke? Coke.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in: Generally a night in, but everyone needs some wildness from time to time. That doesn't involve couches or being pinned to them...
9. Phone or in person: In person. I never answer my phone.
10. Msn or aim: what lame person uses msn?

10 HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. Have you ever been caught sneaking out? never had to.
2. Have you ever skinny dipped: yep.
3. Have you ever done something youregret? of course.
6. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: yeah, one of those huge ones. at disney world.
7. Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt? Yes. I hate you, internet.
8. Have you ever been in a fist fight? hahaha, no. I wouldn't know what to do if someone hit me for real.
9. Have you ever danced in the rain? yep
10. Have you ever had a hang over? only really small ones. what I lack in chutzpah, I make up for in liver.

Project Runway Part Deux is a weird show. I miss Tim Gunn. and Heidi. What the hell is this, Bravo? Why weren't you legally savvy enough to keep PR??? Why?!

i'm just practising my accents, picking at old sutures

2009-05-13T03:14:56Z

Today was an okay day. I turned in my Doughty paper, which wasn't a good book review or anything, but whatever. I slept a lot and unpacked about half of my stuff. I have to go through everything and figure out what I actually need for summer fellows.

then I went to petsmart, got some crickets, and went to the mall with Kieran. I got a pretty flapper dress. It's kinda ridiculous, but I like it and it's comfy. Comfy is important.

I have to drive up to Ursinus one more time this week, on Thursday, for my LSAT class. Last one before the test, I think. So tomorrow I have to do a bunch of catch-up practice work for it, but hey, that's cool. LSAT stuff is relaxing.

Additions to Positive Things That Have Happened in India's Life.

Got a B in comp sci, despite not being able to finish the final.
Got a pretty dress.
Cuddled with kitty (!).

On my way? Hope so.

Looking at possible jobs, post law school. Scary shit.

I need some TV shows to watch this summer. I'm thinking of watching Dead Like Me. Other recommendations? They have to be on DVD or on the internet. I can't remember to watch tv without tivo to record it for me. Lame? Possibly, but still true.

i just want to break you down so badly

2009-05-12T03:34:34Z

I. Am. Done. I am home for good, until summer fellows. I'm going to sleep tomorrow until I wake up. It's going to be glorious. Truly, truly glorious.

And then I'm going to hang out with Alyse and go to Disney World and take time for me. And then when I get back to campus, none of it's going to matter anymore. I can totally make myself work on a calendar. Isn't that how hearts go? I'm pretty sure they do.

people must wonder why I modulate my voice like such a freak!

2009-05-08T15:02:54Z

ugh. oh my god. I'm like, 80% certain that I just completely bombed my abstract alg. final.

I have failed every test. I pray for a C. I really don't want to have to take it again. That looks so baaaad. And I am depending completely on my LSAT to get into Law School because my gpa sucks and this is not helping! Ack.

were I a puking person, that is totally what I would be doing right now.

uggggggggggh.

the end.

i swim for brighter days despite the absence of the sun

2009-05-05T18:42:32Z

ohgodohgodohgod. finals. I am deep in the finals panic. clearly this means I should read lots and lots of panic fic, then, right? Of the Urie-Valdez variety, because I have NO SHAME. NO SHAME. They are totes my second-tier otp, right behind that delovely rydon.

Anyway.

Thursday: Analysis Final

Friday: Algebra Final in-class and take home portion due

Monday: Computer Science program due.

Tuesday: Doughty Paper due.

And I'm going to Six Flags on Saturday with Jon, Emily, and Katie. Because that's such a great idea, for a number of reasons, but hey, roller coasters are roller coasters, right?

that doesn't look like a lot, but it really fucking is. and that Doughty paper is going to be a brutal revision process. ugh. not going to think about it.

i'm an extraordinary machine

2009-05-03T07:43:04Z

started studying for my finals today. 'm scared. I hope I pass algebra.

played fireball, and Thor couldn't even come. I burned the fuck out of my thumb with melted dental floss. e.e; guess we'll have to play again next weekend!

otherwise, though, this shit just doesn't get better. I just want to take you and shake you until you fucking let me in. I just. fuck. it makes me want to break stuff. but intellectually, I know that's not happening. so. game plan. fake it 'til I make it. I only have another week to get through, and then I can go home and get back in my own headspace and force some distance, because I don't have the will/discipline/whatever to make it happen on my own. and disney world.

my mom and I are going to disney world. it's going to be awesome and fun and relaxing and completely free of stupid things that I want and want and can't have.

going to sleep while the birds wake up.

if it was easy, everyone would do it. but it's not. which is why it's up to you.

2009-04-28T20:51:24Z

uuuuugggh.

I can't decide if shaking or hugging is in order because I want to do both.

I think it's making me vaguely passive-aggressive, but I'm allowed to be passive-aggressive for a little bit, right?

but...but dude. fuck.

::flails::

i'm putting out the lantern - find your own way back home

2009-04-27T00:13:44Z

new layout! I like it.

so on the dubiously bright side of life, my entries will begin to look up from here because nothing - nothing - in my college career has ever been and probably can't ever be as absolutely horrid as last week was.

I mean, I had so much work to do that I just didn't sleep at all for two of the nights and then didn't sleep more than five or six hours the other three. So I go through all of this academic bullshit on top of going to class and making a CoSA presentation and going to work. And it's kind of academic hell. But! I made it. I don't even think I failed anything to horribly. So go me.

Then, because I'm a responsible person, I go to Relay for Life. I didn't sleep on Thursday night. I took an exam on Friday and then worked from 1-6pm. So it's like, 7pm and I am a total zombie. But I go anyway. Emily brought me a hot pocket, and life was kind of better. Life was so looking up, because, dude? Life? Not so bad. But then I got broken up with, at 3:00am, on zero sleep, and life really fucking sucked again (that sounds like more of a dick move than it actually was, though, really). Because...fuck. I actually gave a damn.

I mean, it'll be okay eventually, because it has to based on proximity and mutual obligations and my lack of desire/ability to completely cut people out of my life. Not to mention housing next year. But I'm still going to need some time to just regroup and attempt to get myself back into an emotional space in which I can care without setting myself up for more disappointment. I just really don't think that when someone says they need to reevaluate how they feel, you come back from that. Maybe that's pessimistic of me, but you just don't, and I have difficulties asserting myself after being rejected, no matter what it was about or for.

So. I've been spending a lot of time with Jon and Amy and Naomi, and they're doing a good job of distracting and all that shit. Plus, y'know, we are actually friends, so good company 'n all. Last night, we had a small party, and I ended up over at Musser at like, 1:30 in the morning at Liora's birthday party, of all things. Which was yet another moment where I was like, hey, Katie would find this hilarious...oh wait. And gave my phone back to Amy, who was thoughtfully preventing me from making any unadvised late night phone calls full of woe and inebriation. At any rate, I ended up lying in the grass with Shipley and Isaac for like, an hour or two, just being chill and barefoot. I kinda miss the Musser kids, even though I was only there for a semester. Today I mostly did homework, and then Jon, Amy, and I went to Bruster's for some delicious ice cream. Now? Full scale procrastination!

To-do this week:
- indulge my anti-social side
- ~~moot court dinner on Monday~~
- practice LSAT (but not to be done at 2am like the last time...)
- write computer science paper
- revise witchcraft paper (ahahaa)
- start computer science program
- witchcraft reading ~~for Tuesday~~ and Thursday
- ~~finish analysis test for Tuesday~~
- start studying for all of my finals (eek)

Right now, I really just want to play some video games. I don't have any, though, so maybe some sims? I can't decide if it's worth it to just not do anything and relax tonight or to try and get some more work done. I think I'll just finish all of my reading and worry about the heavy lifting tomorrow.

Also, I finally got around to watching The Royal Tenenbaums. I <3 that movie.

In completely random news, the new Placebo single is...disappointing. I knew an album had to really suck at some point, and I think this one is going to be it. The reviews have not been favorable and from what I've heard thus far, I can totally see what they're talking about. They're like the bastard child of...I don't even know. Something okay and something bad. lol. And why the hell is Stefan wearing that horrible toupe? new!Steve is all kinds of fucking ADORABLE, though! I fucking heart all over that guy.

no falafel for you, sir.

2009-04-19T05:08:07Z

hahahaaaa. about that paper.

I am making an outline. That is how intense my procrastination is right now.

And what's not helping is how badly I really just want to sleep or watch The Royal Tenenbaums right now.

My to-do list, because if I write it down enough times, maybe I'll get through it all.

10 page paper

Abstract Algebra take-home quiz

CS program

Analysis II take-home quiz

Witchcraft reading

CoSA presentation for fencing

Analysis II Test (ack)

More witchcraft reading

Be caught up on three weeks worth of LSAT crap, plus take another practice exam...life...

Abstract Algebra Exam, hopefully the one that I won't fail. HAHA.

So there's a lot to do, and then I have Relay at the end of all that, any maybe at some point I'll actually have time to hang out with someone, like Katie. Or eat. I'll really settle for sleeping, actually.

I will get through it. It's just a question of how well it'll all go down. I'm vaguely confident.

On another note, I resisted Jon/Spencer for SO LONG. And NOW? Totally all over that. But all other permutations that aren't Ryan/Brendon and Jon/Spencer still skeeve me out for some unknown reason. And it's really unknown, because my brain thinks a lot of things it shouldn't. Oh, bandom. Where was I without you?

Farther ahead on my paper, I'm sure.

you squint and you grimace, we both know your heart's not in it

2009-04-16T17:43:37Z

Fuck, man. I can't wait until May. May is going to be so awesome because it isn't April. I give up. I'm going home.

The formal is imploding, I am rebuffed at every turn, my work is astronomical, but elections are over and with the grace of TPTB, I will NEVER hear about them EVER AGAIN. And I didn't get accused of cheating at math after all. See? Not all bad. I hope the people that are there, however, have an awesome time. Devon has worked really hard on it.

I can't wait to go home and pet my damn cat and just...fucking reset.

I have no idea how I'm going to get my bandom_bigbang fic done in time. I likely won't, so there's always next year. Next week is imploding spectacularly, so I don't think I'll have a lot of time to write anything but my paper which is due on Monday.

Speaking of, I'm going to go back and do that...now. Ha. Two pages down, eight to go. Well, with footnotes, it's probably closer to a net of nine pages, so yay!

(you're the shit and I'm knee deep in it)

2009-04-09T04:39:16Z

In an effort to combat the raging emo that is my brain right now, my list of positive things that happened today.

The sorority made a conscious effort to be understanding and communicative. It was fuzzy and nice and I pray that it's sincere.

I talked to my grandpa, and he was cracking jokes and that happens so rarely. I appreciate it when it happens.

I got an A on my analysis test. I was so confused, I stared at the grade for like, a full minute. But an A! An actual A! I'm so excited.

I found out that I'm not failing Abstract Algebra, and I probably won't fail it if I can keep it together. C for credit! Or maybe maybe maybe, I could even pull a B!

Jon, Katie, Becca, and I went to the diner and got milkshakes. I desperately needed some triumvirate + Katie time.

Also, my partner for moot court (semi-finals are next Monday!) is as into it as I am, and I think we're going to do a really good job. I get to do the rebuttal, which is my favorite part. It's going to be awesome. I'm so excited for law school.

This weekend, I'm going to see Jon's play, and he makes out with a guy. It's going to be hilarious. Also, I'm making lemon bars. The end.

you get FORKSTABBED

2009-03-14T05:16:00Z

My midterm program for computer science is not done, and I am freaking the fuck out. Seriously. But, eh, we're having a debugging party on Sunday night (totally what I want to do my first evening back from break, riiiiight) that is completely necessary, so. That will help, and I'll just flail through what I can until then. Why did I ever think it would be an awesome idea to minor in comp. sci? Seriously. If only I'd known that what I really wanted was to minor in politics, I could have been all over that. White. on. rice. But, hey, hindsight, whatever. I have like two classes left for my major, and my only point of contention is that I really (times a BAJILLION) do not want to take my capstone with Goebeler. That would just be beyond brutal. :/

I am also somewhat displeased that I must transition from a totally awesome (if at times extraordinarily un-diplomatic) Sir Gordon to...Neslin. F MY LIFE.

Also, I've only read like half of that book about Mexican witchcraft that I need to have done, but that is so far down on my list of worries at this point. Wow. lol. Oh well. My fanfiction comes before that. LAME.

Watchmen. Watchmen was kind of lame, to be honest. It gets lamer the further I get from it. Visually, it looked really nice (except for the blue balls which were just funny). The soundtrack, though? That was jacked. Distracting. I mean, none of it fit anything that was going on in the movie. It just jarred you out of the moment every time, and the moment was pretty difficult to get into as it was since the only person who wasn't made of cardboard in that movie was Rorschach. Don't get me wrong, I love the Requiem, but it was terribly applied. I think they were going for edgy and avant garde, but they fell quite a bit short. Anyway, the ridiculous violence of it was satisfying as these things always are. Y'know, human nature 'n all.

It dawned on me, while watching Aliens a couple of days ago, that Sigourney Weaver, with that 90s hair and the leather jacket? Totally looks like Dr. Frankenfurter. AND I CANNOT UNSEE IT. It is permanently in my brain. It completely undermines any drama that Ripley could muster. Any at all. Every time she turned around to waste some aliens, I was all, "I'm just a sweet transvestite..." in my head. Given that Katie concurred on this point, I feel confident that it was not the Baileys talking, but in fact, reality. Stone cold reality. Damn. This is a fandom secret in the making, just like that Spencer one, if I ever get photo shop. :P No MS paint here.

Ugh, another 30 minutes of semi-productivity, and then I am off for some sleepy times. May I dream of successful code in my head. Any c++ tips about using the STL list class to create a database, complete with a class, would be awesome. I await these wondrous gems of coding wisdom with bated breath. ^.^;;;

I am not a feral squirrel!

2009-03-09T18:15:17Z

I love how the love of my life, William Beckett, is coming nowhere near Pennsylvania, or the entire east coast, for that matter.

::shakes fist::

Curse you, Billiam, curse you!

William Shatner? He just looks like a toad lately.

2009-03-09T00:16:57Z

So I finished that case brief thing, and as soon as I handed it in, the professor said, "Don't worry about your briefs, guys, they really don't matter compared to your oral arguments."

I could have kicked her in the shin. I mean, it wasn't a waste of time or anything, but really? who says that to a room full of kids who have just busted their collective asses to get the thing done? I mean, poor Amy was trapped in a study lounge for three days with me as I flailed my way through that thing, not to mention all of the bitching that Katie had to sit through. Anyway. I'm excited for the oral argument part. It's going to be so cool.

But...law school, how am I going to pay for that? Yikes. I have no idea what is going to happen on the other side of that. The economy sucks so hard right now, so would I be more economically viable if I got an advanced degree in math of some sort? Probably, yeah, but...but law school takes me everywhere that I want to go with my life, y'know? I've never wanted to actually do anything the way that I want to do this, and damn, shouldn't that mean something? I think it should. So. I don't know. Apparently the military will pay for law school, and maybe the government, too. We'll see. I'm going to have a lot of meetings with a lot of people. And hey, who knows, maybe by the time I get out of law school (which would be four years from now), the economy will be somewhat better. Not fixed. That'll take a decade, but at least somewhat more forgiving. Maybe. It could totally happen.

Anyway. Break. I am so glad to be on it. I slept until 12:30 today. I haven't done anything productive in a couple of days, so back to the grind tomorrow, I guess. I'm almost done with Watchmen so that I can go see it whenever Katie and I go see it. Despite reviews, I think it's going to be fun. Bwahaha.

I also realized that I have until the end of April to finish my bandombigbang fic. Thank god. lol.

I want to go see Empires. And William Beckett. Yum.

Are you shipping dancers or lists?

2009-02-28T18:35:28Z

Ahaha life. omfg.

I have my case brief (like the only thing due EVER) in Moot Court to finish this weekend, and none of the argument is done and that's like the most important part. I'm freaking out a little bit. A bit. Ha. A lot. But it'll all turn out okay, right? I am firmly convinced. Ish.

But hey, the rest of life is pretty peachy-keen. Katie and I went to Red Lobster last night, and our waiter was this effed up but highly hilarious blend of Mr. Clean and Keanu Reeves circa Excellent Adventure. Also crab! Yummy. And then we watched Planet Terror, which was certainly an experience. I mean, pustuley-Bruce Willis zombies? And machine gun legs? How is that not going to be one of the most epic things ever? It's not even a contest.

I've been using my computer science lecture as my fifty minute block of time to write since her lecture is completely useless. It's been turning out pretty well. I have another couple of chapters written for my bigbang thing, so we'll see how that goes. lol. It's never getting finished if the semester keeps imploding this way.

It also never ceases to amuse me that even at a time like this, when I am perfectly content with life as it is, I still write the emo-est poetry ever. lolz. thanks inner scene kid, thanks.

A disproportionate number of midgets commit suicide.

2009-02-17T21:51:33Z

so I thought that I had a lot more icons than I actually do? Maybe I moved them to my external and then deleted them from my laptop? I hope so, because if that's not the case, then I have like zero awesome icons to use. Well, y'know.

I have also written nothing in terms of bandom_bigbang, but hey, maybe that's what spring break is for? At least I've been thinking about it, so there's some plot stuff that I've worked out. Now it's just putting it in a word doc without sucking all the fun out of it, which is what has been happening lately. I did get some poems finished, though, and they're only vaguely angsty, so hey! Not a total lose.

I had an excellent Valentine's Day, what with that whole having a valentine thing working out. :) Then Amy, Katie, Devon, and I got all dressed up and went out for a couple of drinks, just 'cause we're 21 and we can do that. And then we went back to Carriage House and hung out with the rest of UPhi, sorta. Well, Becca and Sko showed up, but it was still fun. On Sunday, we all went out for Italian, and it was pretty effing delicious.

Academically, this week and next week are TOTAL HELL. Because my social life and my academic life can't possibly be in line.

Wicked Faire this weekend. I'm pretty excited. Corsets and mockery and excellent company - yay!

Overall, though, life is pretty good right now. Indeed. I also rediscovered an ee cummings poem which I will now inflict on everyone! It has a vaguely Desiderata feel to it, but better, because, hello, it's ee cummings and I love that guy.

may my heart always be open to little
birds who are the secrets of living
whatever they sing is better than to know
and if men should not hear them men are old

may my mind stroll about hungry
and fearless and thirsty and supple
and even if it's sunday may i be wrong
for whenever men are right they are not young

and may myself do nothing usefully
and love yourself so more than truly
there's never been quite such a fool who could fail
pulling all the sky over him with one smile

oops. I forgot the poem! lol.